meditation
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12/09/2026 — 13:51 10 min
laying with my head towards open window. focused on the wind, sometimes I could hear the leaves rustle across the street! tinnitus was chill (indicates peace of mind?), could bring myself back to following breath
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10/09/2026 — 13:23 10 min
window open; tried hearing different sounds outside. mind was focused mainly on high stimuli sounds, sometimes I could hear the wind breeze. very calming exercise though, at the end my tinnitus took over
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09/09/2026 — 22:41 10 min
observed my emotion during breathing. breathing was pretty strenuous, underlying emotion was mild anxiety I think? had lingering headache, tinnitus was loud. was able to watch myself wandering off
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07/09/2026 — 22:17 10 min
mila was begging for attention, felt irritated. feet were hot (from walking?) I had an imaginery necklace and there was a loop of someone taking it, weird sensation, lots of unnecessary thoughts
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05/09/2026 — 16:14 10 min
after some stretching/yoga. body felt relaxed, mind was super clear. chill session, sometimes tingling (choppy) sensation in my belly/head
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04/09/2026 — 11:53 10 min
back to laying down. Mila purring & headbutting :0 became aware of a mild headache. there were moments of deep focus, followed by daydream slumber
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03/09/2026 — 14:54 5 min
in seiza again, left feet went numb. knees started hurting again. very uncomfortable session, tried to accept situation instead of being annoyed
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01/09/2026 — 15:49 5 min
started in seiza. had to switch after few minutes because my left knee hurt. tried picking up env sound & sensation body. tinnitus was sharp and annoying
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31/08/2026 — 14:24 10 min
focused on breathing by laying my hand on my belly. bv lot of wandering off. Odin came in and layed himself on top of me xp at the end i could focus more & muscles felt relaxed
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28/08/2026 — 13:14 5 min
first meditation in a long time. was cte thinking about what to write lol. tried scanning & relaxing my body, was hard to focus. hopefully, this log will help me restart the habit
analog
In an attempt to start noticing the world around me, I'll try photography (analog)! Shoutout Papa for the camera & introduction!!
2026
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Perfect Days
I have watched the movie Perfect Days several times now. It reminds me to look for beauty in simple things. I hope this webpage can be a tool for that.
As a reactive person, I find it very intriguing to watch Hirayama's observant nature. Rather than accepting people's negative energy, he acts from a place of no ego. He acknowledges the existence of a homeless person with genuine compassion and interest. Or he watches sunlight leaking through trees with joyful presence (Komorebi - 木漏れ日).
The simplicity of his life is reflected in the small collection of music cassettes he owns. He doesn't have an endless array of options, and thinks Spotify is a physical store. Yet, he finds such childlike joy in recycling his 80s tapes, feeling the music in a way I only experience when stoned.
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Redondo Beach
Patti Smith
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Perfect Day
Lou Reed
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Pale Blue Eyes
The Velvet Underground