Who the fak am I ???

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Name:

Jolan

Age:

30

Gender:

Male (he/him)

Current Games:

Valorant, Kovaaks, Cocoon

Current/Next Movie, Anime & Book:

Scavenger Reign, Sonny Boy, Miracle of Love

Hobbies:

Running, Fitness, Arts & Crafts, Petting my cats

I struggled with that question for many years and this led to pretty depressing and confusing periods in my life. I was fortunate enough though to come across some far out people. Now I can see that who I am as a person is not definite, it is constantly flowing into new forms (& interests lolol) and that's okay. There is no one big purpose, I don't have to earn acceptance by accomplishing whatever, I believe the most important thing is to try hold some space & empathy for yourself and others. Because when in a state of love, I truly feel more expanded and free. (ofc shoutout Ram Dass)

Okayyy that's it for the spiritual intro. Now we'll dive into my earthly interests and hobbies. They tend to shift in monthly cycli. This makes me appear pretty scattered but alsoooo (!!) very open-mindend. However there is a common denominator! I like reading books, playing video games, watching anime, doing arts & crafts and trying a lot of different sports. I would say my main interests at this very moment are bouldering, Kovaaks and making Ram Dass stickers. As a person I am introverted & yeah i guess a little bit shy so i prefer low-stimulation environments with not too many people.

Maybe you've noticed, but Killua from Hunter X Hunter is my favorite anime character. I use him as an alter ego, I guess, which is why you see him a lot and why the name of my website and gamertag is killuwua3. Why I think he's so cool is because I feel there are some resemblances between us. In the right environment with the right people (GON!!!!), he is so kind, funny, and cute. But then there's his dark side, where he can just turn off his emotions and ruthlessly kill someone (he was raised as an assassin, after all).

Of course, I don't have the intention to kill anyone, but I feel like I am an empathetic person who, at times (due to certain triggers or mood switches), can become very cold and nasty towards people. Before embarking on my spiritual journey, I would just hide it and push it away, which only made it come out even nastier at times. Now, I try to accept that part of myself by bringing love and honesty to it. That really helps create space between my emotions and actions, resulting in much less toxic behavior. But yeah, I still have a long way to go.

Mmmm I think that's it, maybe one last piece of trivia -> I LOVE GHIBLI MOVIES!

Below I'll share my top tier anime/movies/games/books lists and I have also included a few useful links I used while coding this website! Feel free to check it out!!!